Biggest Loser

So my parents and I are doing a biggest loser. We all weighed in on 1/1/11 and it will end on 4/1/11. There is a good chance they will at least blow me outta the water. I call my mom and ask "So whatcha doing" her response was "Walking and jogging a 10 miles" so then she asks what I am doing as I sit in my pjs playing on the computer... hmmmm not good huh?

I have to admit even though I am not in over drive I am more aware and saying no to things which is good for me. See I have to admit I am lazy I was blessed with being skinnier my whole life up until about 5 years ago when I got the news I would be having a baby. I got rather sick and the weight gain and swelling was a little out of control. I love Andrew to little pieces but I never really got into gear. I was always healthy and ate healthy and was active but with being married, having a child and working full time my life has changed a lot. So now it takes real work and its not something I generally have ever done. But looking at myself lately I feel rather sad. I keep finding the "before" pictures and its getting rather irritating. I just hope I am to the point it sticks.

I have seen many of my friends lose the weight. They all look so amazing. I have tried to change my view points and not looking at what I can't do or have and focusing on what I can do and have. I even made a wish list of cloths for when I get to my goal weight. I am not shy about telling my weight because you can look at it an see it, its not something I can generally hide. I am a chunky 168 and would like to be a nice 125 - 130. I would love to be at the goal weight or rather close to it by the time my 7 year anniversary of marriage roles around (think he will feel jipped if me being skinnier is a gift lol). So now onto a fun filled adventure of losing the weight and feel ok in my own skin.

Mama I love you but you are going down!!!

So.... Have you missed me?

I fear I have not been very attentive to you all lately. But hooooray I am not dead... I am here.. boring you with my pointless rant. I haven't really known what to say. I guess you could always make up things for me. If you plan to do this can you make me someone wickedly awesome?? That would be great thanks!

Sadly I have been a loser. I haven't done much. I put together a rather detailed train party which seemed pretty epic to me (does planning a childs train party being epic make me sad?) It was rather awesome though.

I love this blog.. She is strange and notices thing that most wouldn't see even if pointed out to them..

Well that is all I am outtie :)

Doctors...

So I am thinking I am going to have to go back to the doctors. I have been up and down this road with them for a good 4 years now... Shortly after having Andrew I started having stomach issues. I got sick after every time I ate. At first it was just a stomach ulcer. Nothing helped so onto gallbladder which I had removed still nothing so they said I had to get use to not having a gallbladder so I waited a good year then onto the ulcer again. So they finally sent me to a specialist who said I have IBS. Lately though I haven't been stressed but the attacks are AWFUL! I am fine and then the next moment I am ready to hit the floor curl up in a ball and die.. I get goosebumps its so bad. My whole body feels like its over heating and I have this pain for a good 15mins to 2 hours. So I am going back to the regular doctor and giving him a piece of my mind! This is just stupid!!! The attack is so painful it sometimes hurts all up in my chest so I dunno I think that screams more then an ulcer and IBS can be bad but the medicine isn't touching it at all.

I have been trying to catch up on House but half the episodes aren't working..

So lately I have LIVED in a funk a bad funk where my head and mirror dont match so then I refuse to try. I see no point in it if I don't feel amazing which is silly and that is why we call it a funk.. Hoping I work past it soon... I miss my long hair I found this pic:

I think I look nice... haven't felt I looked nice in a few weeks now.. but then again I haven't tried very hard and I have looked like hell so its not helping... but I cant seem to get up and go. I need to run and eat healthy and start trying in everything... Just hard...

I want to shape my eyebrows.. I let them grow out to the scary point and had them waxed... yeah they looked nothing like the photo below:

So I am trying again! I hope I can get them to a nice point. Well I am gonna relax... Shower time!

Plans...

I am watching House and can't sleep. So I am going plan Train Party and Surprise Rich! Andrew has never had a party and he asked if he could have one... He is IN LOVE with Thomas the Train! Like love love love.. So we are having a train party. I am working on a guest list of boys and decor! I have the cake picked out other then my mom said I should get ice cream cake which giving me ideas leads to other thing which leads to other things. I am like House in how you say something which gives him an idea and hes off... I do that.. Its rather evil..


I am sad in my attempt to surprise people. I got hair extensions. I know rich loves my long hair but I wanted to try short.. I rocked it I am over it but until I can have long hair I must fake it.. So I am going to "attempt" making his fav dish of the moment which is macaroni chicken parm. I also want to make the dessert we got there last time I LOVED it.. what?? I am cooking I get a treat! I want to do it just because hes been rather amazing lately. I try to live in these moments where life doesn't seem to get in the away and you just enjoy one another. Its so hard with how crazy life can be. Plus its nice to feel specail.

I am also working on my mom and dads anniversary SHHH she may read this so HAH i'm not telling!!!

What else.... Ohhh I need to get cracking I have a goal of being 125. I want to be at least to be in the low 140's by I am 25 so that is a pound a week untill my b-day which is 4 months or 21 weeks. I also want to grow my hair out a good 12 inches.. I read your hair grows half and inch every month so I have a ways to go :( Until then here are hair I could try along the way...



Short with bangs my hair is still a little shorter then this one.

I LOVE this one... not sure how she styles it tho..

Cute long layers!

The Goal!!

Well boys and girl I am tired! Night!

Fall and 5k

Ok so I did a 5k in which I didn't work towards I just did it.. Needless to say I am proud but wish I would have planned better for it. I dont work out I eat rather unhealthy and then forcing my body to do this stuff it boycotts me. Oddly I dont feel too sore but the sore throat I was fighting won.. I am losing my voice and my throat is killing me. Blah! To top it off rich has been throwing up and andrew is snorting because his sinuses are backing up.

On a good note fall is around the corner. It is by far my favorite season. Its not too hot not too cold and if you live up north the trees turn such pretty colors. I love what you wear around fall too.. Boots and sweaters.. leather jackets and scarfs, plaid and vest. Hot coco mmmmmm... I have been looking around.. I want some Ankle Boots, Knee High Boots, Biker Boots, I love the folded over boots! I am in love with the new jackets this year my top 3 are: Stoosh Military Jacket, Leather Military Jacket, Ruffled Leather Jacket!

That is all for now the medicine is kicking in :(

Weight Loss

So I was told I should blog more.. That I am generally always up to something and that people (well some) enjoy hearing about it.. At the moment I am trying to not let my ADD ways foil me losing weight. I have had many stages from my all teen years till about 19 I weighted anywhere from 115 - 125. At 19 I became prego with my first child. I had a very bad time with being prego I got sick I got up to 190. After having andrew I weighted anywhere from 175 - 155. At the moment I sit at a rather sad 165.

(loading pictures on here sucks or is that just me)

I would like to get back to at least 130. Once 130 we will see. But I have been lazy having pity party for myself.. So now no more! At least I hope. I would like to be at least rather close to my goal weight by my 25th birthday. I have been sad and lazy for almost 5 years now.

I hate life changing things. I am not good at change. I always default to bad habits. I am hoping this time it sticks. Seems all my friends around me and family are losing weight. So that will be part of my blog.

Other parts will be about family events, my crazy projects, the fact my hair changes like my cloths and whatever else comes to mind.. I wouldn't rely on these being wonderful or even consistent, but its worth a shot! Till next time!

Lets face it

It is true... I am of the larger size and offically over it! I need to start trying harder.. Today was a bad day to start lol... I was in such a sad mood that I default to bad food and comfort.. Its been 3 years since my brothers passing and I was just plan down. I ate BAD... not just bad but REALLY BAD.. So I am back to logging food and working out.. No soda, less bad food.. I want to lose 40 lbs. I am in great need of that. So weight lose here I come!